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First off change everything you think you know is wrong
Change the way you think about things when you write your songs
Change the only constant and death is very long
Forever in your shadow
Forever is never gone
I love you like a broken arm
Sick of the jokes you chokin on
Call me a bad actor and all cops are bastards
No gods, no masters
No managers, no handlers
No catcalls, no showboatin or panderin
Never cancel a show
Even when I need to go home
Girl cryin on the phone
Like daddy Ross, where are you
What are you doin
Another relationship in ruins
Cause I never stop moving and I never stop losin friends
A lot of my best friends died too young
From Drugs and suicide
So when I say do or die
I mean it
Od'ed too many times to get another chance
Don't believe in signs
Or anything meant to be
Only here cause my heart didn't give up when the drugs tried to kill me
So now I show people what it's like to be the real me
Whatever real is
WhatevzForevz kids
You wanna be here in the now put a mic to your lips and sing it
And tell your favorite rapper to bring it
And I'll probably listen very intently and tell him he did a good job
I don't wanna be another person full of hate
I practice compassion and work on a clean slate
Never rap attackin
I don't dis or bash em
I just spit my truth
Try to connect with what's inside you
Is this really art
Or self-gratification
Did I do my part
Or just put on makeup
This world is so made up
All your shit is fake
Mountains of plastic in man made lakes
Poisonous food on lead dinner plates
Born to fuckin lose in these reindeer games
They think I'm insane cause I won't take part
Whoever they choose, I will not bow to em
You're not my president, you're not my leaders
You're not my government, you're not my teachers
I was born here
But I can die with some dignity
Even if I'm shitkickin till I stop breathin
I won't stop fightin and tryin to defeat them
Wanna be a good person
But don't know what that is
I never was a child, just a fuckin kid
And I killed off myself before I knew what life was
That's why they call me dead
That's why I want love
That's why I wander so much
And don't know how to trust
Whether broke and on dope
Or rich and all alone
I see us all the same
We all wanna go home
We all suffer
Even if we try to hide it
Inside is a black hole
Started as a tadpole
Now I'm chasin death like it stole my money, asshole
Can't wait forever to be a better bad soul
I miss my mother
I miss my uncle Danny
Wish I could known the person my dad was
Before the crack rock and skol vodka
I'm tryin to forgive you
And also myself
That's why I'm doin everything I can to get help
Focus on my health, destroy the self
All we got's each other
And I miss jarryd too
I miss so many people
But that's nothin new
Gotta let go so I don't miss you
So I don't miss us
So I don't miss life
Open up my eyes and cut that kite
Cut that kite!
Cut That KITE!
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We can never rest
As long as they got us in chains
Puttin a foot down on my chest
Most this life is nothin but pain
And I'm fiending, till there's nothin left
I'm schemin, on a way to fake my death
So when the demons call, ain't seein y'all
Ghost in the house
I sleep with y'all
When you see me comin
Ya better start off runnin
When we beat the war drum and plummet from ten thousand feet and we know that we've done it, done it
Yeah
I'm nothin nice
Don't make me tell you what I told you twice
Sweet dream blindin diamond kite
Floats off in the sun that's burnin bright
Scene fly by with days thats borrowed
We all know that there's no tomorrow
And that's just how it goes
Everybody knows, everybody knows
Everybody goes, everybody dies
We can see the look in each other's eyes
Leavin the prison of measurable time
Watchin the stacks of the calendars climb
When life fades from your skin
What'll you regret about where you been
Did you fear god and hide your sins
Will you be scared when the light goes dim
And then we closed our eyes and never knew sorrow again
Walk on the stars
Free without thoughts
Let go of the breath in my lungs and shed my dirty skin
Hook:
We are the ones that made it here
We are the ones that they will fear
We are the ones that made it here
No one can make us disappear x2
Fuck what y'all sayin
Cut that string
Feelin impatient
So much pain in my heart I can taste it
Yeah the worlds gone mad
Just face it
Raise that fist clenched on your chest
Weight of the everything please take a breath
Hold it so holy that no one can harm you and time moves slowly you don't even know me
I can feel sunlight on my bleeding tongue
Lips shake quick on a loaded gun
Color my skin in waves of rainbow
Transfuse alien blood
Give me a drug
Give me a clue
Give me a taste of what you do
We could all spit on a canvas and call it a masterpiece but what is your truth
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No sleeping on deaths door
The road is like a wolf cry
Screaming with your hands in the sky
Praying gods will save you
Save your breath for the walk home
A loner but I'm not alone
Hittin homers cause I'm not home
On an epic path
To leave an epitaph
That will inspire when you read it
keep it quiet like the golden dome
Listen for the pin drop in a bucket of crabs pulling each other down to the bottom
Hear that neck crack
Got em
We can watch each other fight for a moment of a grand glory
Hold dominion over a blue dot
And become a story
I'd rather hold my people up
No matter what our skin or blood will show you
We all float through just fighting the cold truth
That we're all gonna die
But I'm hopin it's not you
So we smash every ideal we can that doesn't hold true purpose
I'm sorry love and respect make you nervous
Just keep moving forward and always question why
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What are we all lookin for inside
Let it all breathe
Pick a part of me its hardly my heart harmin me
An army of martyrs marching to mark up the beast
An epic epoch in the streets
I'll meet 2pac in a week
I'm awesomely geek
I walk in my sleep
With a crew of demons readin me cheap with their tongues in their cheeks
Yeah
I just wanna eat
But my diets restrictive
A little kick to the ribcage
I'm getting the sickness
The list goes
You cant even fuck with this shit
Out your window
You can hear the pump of the Pistons
The man in the machine
Or machines in the man
Tried to wash away clean
But there's red in my hand
Ain't your regular brand
I got a record to plan
I got a mess in the pan
Wanna cook it all down
When the checks in my hand I'm like look at me now
Walk a plank to the blood bank
And thank you I love hate
Most of y'all vampires that love stakes
And pierce veins to feel good on your best day
Right straight through your heart
I see it
Take it apart
Write a letter to God
I hope that he won't respond
But there's hope in the intangible
Animalistic
Sit and levitate in a meditative state
On the dinner plate
Head games and higher stakes
I would made it maybe if I had stayed awake
I think a lot about what I wanna say to you
I think I'm running out of time to even make it through
There's already so much that I gave to you
There's Fugazi in the dirt
Man they're playing you
I think a role is a myth that they made you choose
But I don't need an excuse
You can save the proof
You keep definitions loose
But I pick apart truths
If you want the hard news I got a fickle heart noose
Man I'm walking a line
Between lost in my mind and often caught in the blinds
No longer will find, that everything is terrible
We live like we're famous and everyone is scared to lose
Nothing cool about watching the world die
Talk like a church fire
You keep your girl high
Locked in a closet
Chalk it up to the losses
A bitter mind convexed
Misreading the context
And I text text text
To see what's next next next
I never rest rest rest
Until my death death yessssss
That's where you finding me
Freedom of what I believe
Nothing is decided for me
Just experience environment
See them ring around the rosie
Read and weep bout alimony
Yeah that's right now you're phony
Eat the cheap fried bologna
Be the leader or be elitist and conceded homie
You're the reason they disown me
No one knows the trouble I've seen but they know I'm lonely
All the bleak talk about hard in the streets
Got a price tag to finish us off without beef
And you don't wanna speak like you're special or different
You don't wanna breathe under water with the fishes
You don't wanna pretend your heart doesn't beat
Cause time isn't real man it's not something you keep
I think a lot about what I wanna say to you
I think I'm running out of time to even make it through
There's already so much that I gave to you
There's Fugazi in the dirt
Man they're playing you
I think a role is a myth that they made you choose
But I don't need an excuse
You can save the proof
You keep definitions loose
But I pick apart truths
If you want the hard news I got a fickle heart noose
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A lot of people that I loved are gone and dead
Stop writing about anarchy and go break laws instead
Sometimes I wish the whole world would just go away
If you wanna make some money go be the rap version of Coldplay
I've spent the whole day watching my name is Earl
Thought about a mustache
That once set me free
When I was only 8 I studied martial arts and sat silent in a ghee
Everyone around me has these holes drilled through em
Everyone is ancient
Everyone is ruins
Every action has a point but most are just illusions
I wanna be illusive and my songs intrusive
And every time you're lucid you almost fuckin lose it
I'm always in the new shit
But opinions inconclusive
I've stolen many things from hearts to sleeping pills
And after this song is over going back to write my will
Some time to kill a mockingbird sings a sad song
Telling people they make bad art's like saying they laugh wrong x4
Tweet a trail of bread crumbs
What's your favorite kids book
A rule is made to break but the crooks always get shook
Down on the breaks the soul is mistook for drums
While I hand change to bums
Coming from the bottom all your things become weights
I've found out most of my thoughts have been fake
Tried to get to a place where they all know my name
I wanna move to the happiest emotional state
Tell me bout your painting and how deep it is
Tell me what you've been through and all about your kids
Tell me everything that you've ever regretted
I'll listen cause I'm gonna die and have to accept it
Some time to kill a mockingbird sings a sad song
Telling people they make bad art's like saying they laugh wrong x4
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This ain't the struggle
It's more like a lottery
This is hard dope and what it does to the economy
This is snow in Florida
When it rains it pours
But rain is just water that you mop off the floor
Holes in the ceiling is what shows you're really poor
Really more to this life than watching your family cry and only go to church when one of your friends die
Have a drink and ask why
Then back to the same blind state of living
Raised a wolf inside a brain prison
Rainbow prisms
Innocent child-like forgetting me
Not a lot of good times locked inside my memory
Visiting the giving tree
All the branches cut off
Only 4 years old and my light is getting shut off
Might just be the sun's wrong
Everything ain't happy here
Cocaine residue inside my mothers tears
Dig a hole to bury everything we know we'll always fear, yeah
Granddaddy was a preacher
Too bad I never knew him
I'm losing history
Watch me build my own ruins
Master such illusions
A bad, bad Houdini
Leave with your money, your heart and leave my cd
and this is nothing more than howling at the moon
or talking to yourself in a pitch black room
The way we consume its a bonafide crisis
Watch out the window at the way the light hits the pavement
Where the diamonds are caged in
Lock all your doors and climb up in your spaceship
Shot down for sure, so it's time for a facelift and I rock out on tour and stay cool, calm and patient
A lot to ignore on a long dreary day shift
I'm stopping it short
Hit concrete for paychecks
Walk through to the sound
Eq in my soul
Till the day I'm done, say Mamma I'm comin' home
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We're all naked in the womb
And under our tombs will be flesh getting rotten and consumed
They say life is what you make it
But sometimes hearts get broken and what you love gets taken
Or innocence gets shattered and confidence is shaken
You reach out your hand but no ones there to take it
Regrets and plans and the guilt that your facin
For all the things you've done and all the things you haven't
The grass is always greener
And drugs become a habit
We all wanna be happy but would you know if you had it
Yeah just another addict to the human condition
Consume like a virus and live like I'm visiting
I'm not really from here
We're not from anywhere
We are not like you, but you probably shouldn't care
Not gonna wake up in a dream of a better world tomorrow
Thoughts arise and die and if we burn that's okay like
The worlds not what you see and we are just a memory
I'm fighting to bring peace and sanity
I'm possibly sick
If gave the chance they'd lock us all away
That time might come soon
So prepare what to say
No apologies
I'm Cobain
I'm Bill Hicks
I'm Cocaine
I'm propane and everything that's fire
Let it burn
Lesson learned
Yeah I know everything isn't always bad but there is much cause for concern
Wake up in a big bed
Money stacks under you
So close to being dead
But gotten so comfortable
Pain rush your head from what the drugs done to you
So take another pill and only feel wonderful
Surrounded by 4 walls
Painted off white
Locked doors and windows makes you feel tight
If it's only on the news then at least you're alright
Even if you hear the sirens screamin all night
I was born to be nothing
But they tell you to be anything
If you don't stand for something
It's cool I won't judge you
We don't need to follow blindly imperialistic visions
Of a country founded by slavery and run on prisons
The dirt that we live in, we're steady diggin graves
It's nothin new to pray even when you don't believe in being saved
It's okay
do the best you can
Try not to harm
Kill hate
Make art
And love who you are
This world will try to break you and most have it worse than me
So I'm not tryin to tell you how to be
I don't have all the answers
Just keep asking questions
Hone down your message and live in the present
Time doesn't exist when you live for right now
Follow what you feel
Bring that ego down
To turf
Know exactly what you're worth
And have the best ride that you can on spaceship earth
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Hello friend
It's been a little while
Seem like a minute since I've seen you smile
I saved you a seat
And you don't have to listen
But the shit I gotta say I'd hate myself if I didn't
Your face looks different
Aged and worn
Your hands feel cold when they touch my arm
Are we in space
Or inside the space between us
See your eyes glaze and your light seems to leave us
The art of losing ourselves in a drink
hardest of part dying inside is that you still have to think about what you're doing
And How you did it wrong
All the people you've hurt
I promise life is long
And I'm goin nowhere
I just wanna live and not pretend I don't care
I know what it's like tryin to moderate
But when you're smoking hard dope
Stopping you can't contemplate
It's like it gets in your head and takes over your soul
But this is not a family
It's a broken home
We've cracked the foundation
And we're trapped in a Groundhog Day situation
Insanity, doing the same thing
Expecting a difference
We're full of pain and we've found a way to hurt someone else
Cause we can't stand ourselves
It's the hand that was dealt
but the choice is still ours
No one ever said doing the right thing wasn't hard
And no one can make us stop
My god
It took everything in me
To get where I am and I cherish every minute
When I was livin that life
Only three places to end up
Dead, in rehab or the criminal system
So now I'm here livin
Yeah
And I'm hopin one day that you can get it
For every wave that crashes down
There's a current that brings us back
We will float to the higher ground
Letting go of the things we lack
I wander searching through all these towns
Waiting for them to set me free
There's a feeling that's on repeat
Move away from our history
Used to play connect the dots on my arms in my veins
Suicide games
Holding on to each breath like a lifeboat
We walk the tightrope
From thirty floors up man
Can't see the light shown
Please take me away
make a change
Carry me home to a better day
A cold December
I can't feel my center
I don't even know if you're here or just remembered
Memories of your last Mother's Day
I was on drugs and couldn't make myself stay
I wanted to be there for you
And it's still hard to forgive myself for what I put you thru
I know you tried hard to put yourself in my shoes
Cause you'd been there
The hopelessness of when we use
And though it makes me sad I wasn't there at the end
I wouldn't change a single thing bout where I've been
All these mistakes have made me
I'm the man that you wanted me to be when I was crazy
Your the woman that raised me
Can't believe that your death is what it took to save me
So here I am now
It's still hard for me to know that I'm makin you proud
So I'm breakin it down
Put my heart on my sleeve and bleed it for the crowd
We do what this warm spirit tells us
Cause to claim anything different to me would be selfish
I don't buy what they sell us
A couple snakes in the grass in the form of zealots
I'm kidDEAD dude
I got a job to do
I don't throw my life to the wolves just to be cool
I do it cause I have to
I do it to stay true
I do it for the people
Yeah I do it for you
For every wave that crashes down
There's a current that brings us back
We will float to the higher ground
Letting go of the things we lack
I wander searching through all these towns
Waiting for them to let me free
There's a feeling that's on repeat
Move away from our history
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Not Like You
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It's only natural to be afraid sometimes
Fight or flight to shine a light on which mountain to climb
And you could sit and ponder every option imaginable
I'll never win a fucking Grammy
It's beautiful we all make music too
And I take what people tell me and turn it to my truth
I will never hang from a conformist noose
Yeah We all flip thru our phones wanna give dead friends a call
Bitter as fuck glorious souls get taken before their time
I'm lookin for a sign that you're right behind me watching
From another dimension
Another place galaxy floating in space
Hope you know everything
And have the peace that none of us have
The suffering human that we all grasp
I'm looking so hard I almost see you
And the stars are your letter that I read too
Cause if we're all connected
And you're layed to rest
Then the what the world shows is our deaths resurrected
And we seem to think that these meat sacks that we stuff clothes over fill with salty crap are what we are and that there isn't more to us than rotting flesh that walks toward death
I will not be a slave to debt and minimum wage and a product of my age
I will not act in line with your social views
My religious or political beliefs
I do as I please
Until we're locked up in cages being charged to breathe
I'm sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but we are not free
We're not like you
We live forever
We're not like you
We don't go up to heaven
We're not like you
We live forever
We're not like you
We want something better
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